About to Spring

DON'T ONLY PRACTICE YOUR ART 

BUT FORCE YOUR WAY INTO IT'S SECRETS, 

FOR IT AND KNOWLEDGE 

CAN RAISE MEN TO THE DIVINE.

- Ludvig van Beethoven 

Such a good piece, calms my soul, allows me to breathe and raise my intellect. 

Yours truly,

S - art lover

For this Mother's Day

Was studying for my RFP Module 2 Exams, taking a break from it to FB for awhile. Came across a link by local production, made a video dedicated to all the Momsie around the world for this is Mother's month :)

It may be a simple and short video but the meaning is nonetheless. At least it reminds people not to neglect their parents. 


I grew up with full of love from my parents, I am the first born so everything is the best. For some reason things kinda grew apart for us. I'm sorry for being a big worry for both of them. They will never stop worrying anyway but its my responsible to make up for the worry.


Like the last verse of this video..

Too often they don't realize what they have until it's gone. They're too stubborn to say, "Sorry, I was wrong". They hurts the ones closest to their hearts, and we let the most foolish things tear us apart. -Marilyn Monroe

And it is so true... 


I'm sorry Mami and i love you, Happy Mother's Day!




<3
S

InSecure Sucks

Have this insecure feeling eating me out. Go with the flow is easy to say but hard to be done. Urgh. There is no happy ever after in life is there? So much in my mind i don't even know how to spill it anymore. God, do you hear me? :(

Piggy back

I'm sorry I did not understand your sense of humor at times. Telling me to go home in a serious tone is not funny but :) the way you woo me back is heart melting. I can never say no to your cute boyish smile, it melts me heart. Damn you held captive to my weakness.
Meeting you gave me a whole new experience about being in a relationship, about communicating well with people and understanding, about being in love in a sense of reality, about being grounded. It requires only one basic element, sincere heart. Look into all issues by using my heart and not my naked eyes open up more in our relationship and it does build a stronger base each time we achieve that. :)
And you making sure I'm totally alright of one issue certainly helps that I do no hold grudge against past issue because it will create an ugly scene if left unattended. Thank you my love.

I love collecting memories of little things you did that caught me off guard. I remembered you insist on piggy back me while we were doing groceries shopping and you have to push the trolley at the same time. It's the slightest possible but you still insist, it didn't last very long of course you silly :) but the five minutes of piggy back will stay in my memory for as long as I live.

Thou we are not the first to each other but we did build our many first experiences together :) and you gave me many first experiences. What lies ahead we cannot be certain but last night your msg marked a real certain that you will be the Man of mine.

Proudly saying this; I love you deeply Shawn Chieh Pann Chuan. :}

Yours truly,
S

Freed

It is sure to be Freed when you got nothing stuck in your head, and you felt lighter and slimmer? Hah. What am i gibberish about? But I'm sure feeling lighter by saying what's in my mind to you. At least I'm being honest, i don't need to hide things from you. The magic of communication. :) I hope you feel the same.

Falling in love with you again & again

Because,

You proposed on our first date, and showed me to your friends
You took the longer road to take me home so that you can spend a lil longer time with me,
You kissed me on our second date,
You gave me first experience of Subway,
You showed me what is balance,
You bring me food from home in the stainless steel lunch case? :D *that really caught my attention
You love bringing me to movies,
You love it when I'm around you,
You sang Jay Chou - Jian Dan Ai and Shayne - No Promises to me on our first KTV date, and then you intro me to your grandma.
You make me laugh all day, and you make sure I am happy,
You are my Goofy, my papaya, my beast, my china man,
You know what's on my mind or maybe we just have the connection, When you ordered me the supper I didn't even mention to you.. :) amen,
You believe in Jesus, you love God :)
You cared for me when I'm sick, you bought me gastric pills,
You escort me home with your car and you thought I didn't notice... :) thank you DD
You love holding my hands and love it even better when I sleep beside you,
Our first song - Sometimes When We Touch, Olivia Ong
Our second song - You Cannot Be Replaced, Sammi Cheng
You still make me laugh and make sure that I'm fine :)
You help me to cook, you do house chores because you love me
You are my silly, my guardian, my guide, my confidant, my friend,
Most important, my love

And that is why I am falling with you again every time the sunrise

:}

Love you Shawn Chieh Pann Chuan!

Misery

I have this feeling, if I'm too comfortable with a condition, I will feel insecure. Caused the feeling of losing the condition is unbearable, so that is why it is always good to be better rather than stay put at one point. Sometimes I rather be alone, where nobody knows me, recognize me, bother me so I can just do my stuff without giving much shits about others. Who am I anyway? Be a listener is always better than being the sweet talker? Or is it otherwise? Being a butterfly is not much greater either...dear god, I'm at a cross road now. It is the actions that I do that create the respond or unwelcome reactions. Always think for others and others will think for you? I guess it is merely what god will think for you.

Dear lord, hear my heart out tonite. It is crying.

Goodnite.